30 Days of Me: Nothing Update

Today is a "tickle your fancy" and/or "freestyle day."

I have nothing creative to post about, so I will just go on a life update.

*I am watching the pre-game for the USA vs. England match as we speak. I tuned in an hour early. Whoops.

*I got the Green Day Rock Band game... and love it. The band may have their haters, but I am not one of them.

*Went to a concert on Tuesday with headliner Emery. If you want to read about the details, do it here. But my cool story is that the opening band was really good and I got to talking to them and they might come in to the studio in the future which would be really awesome.

*I see blogger has some new templates. I may have to mess with those because finding ones on the internet is frustrating sometimes. And I especially am inspired after jeanette's update.

*Something interesting happened last night. I'm not sure I can really go into detail about it, but it has to do with a subject I have talked about in the past.

Well, I'm gonna check out this game. And then spend my weekend playing video games, doing random clean up around the house and hopefully watching Pirate Radio.

A Good Week?

I guess they do happen.

Monday: Had my radio show that I feel went really well. I had a co-host in there with me and I always feel better when someone else is in the studio. I feel looser. Plus, the songs were selected with help from you guys (which songs exactly? -- keep reading).

Tuesday: Went to a carnival. Yep, at 23 years old I went to a carnival. There was a random one in our town and I was like "let's have a little fun" so I told my friend Jessica to not dare make any plans cuz we are going out. We had a really good time in that "we are too old to be here but eff it, let's have some fun." Went on a ferris wheel, watched her get hussled into spending 20 dollars on a stuffed monkey, and of course got a funnel cake. Ended the night by riding The Zipper. That thing was intense and I spent more time trying to grab my cell phone that was being flung around like a pin ball than enjoying myself. Ended the night with some mexican food. Taco salad's are my favorite.

Wednesday: Made the return to my bowling league after missing the week before because I was puking my lungs out. Bowled pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. 206, 180, 198. We won all our games cuz it's what we do. But really, what we do is have fun and that's what I did Wednesday night.

Thursday: Got my speech grade back and made a 97. Pretty happy about that. Then for dinner I got a craving for some breakfast type food so I asked Jessica if she wanted to go to IHOP (side story: Jessica and I haven't been hanging out much lately, so I guess this week was good too because of reconnecting). Had a really good time at IHOP meaning great service, great food. Then, I'm sitting there watching Lost when I get a call from jme. Wants to know what I thought about "The Men Who Stare at Goats" which I couldn't give her an answer because I haven't seen. But all the sudden the subject of Rock Band got brought up. I love technology. With us living hours apart, we were all able to jump on and get a full band going consisting of myself, her, her husband, and Kami. Ok, maybe that last one wasn't actually a part of the band. But it was really fun, I even got the Lady GaGa tracks so "Bad Romance" was definitely blasting in my living room.

Friday: Just chillin. If I can find somebody willing, I may go see Kick-Ass tonight. If not, probably more Lost and Tiger Woods on Xbox. Life is good right now.

And for Allison and anybody else who was curious, these are the songs I played on Monday's show with two exceptions. I played the acoustic version of "Anna Molly" and "Lingering Still" by She and Him, not "Sentimental Heart" but those two tracks weren't available. Also note that to be accurate, #1 on the playlist is #30 in the countdown and so on. To match with the list, go back here. Enjoy these tracks and hopefully you will enjoy the final spots in the countdown.

Random lyric of the day:

Summer comes and leaves you with a fever
That you caught
When you were young
Summer goes, makes you feel like life is real
And hanging on for more

I Should Be Studying

I've gotten some new followers lately and I would like to say thanks to all of you. And also I'm sorry. This isn't my usual kind of post, so please bare with me.

(sidenote: I am horrible at following wordpress blogs. I usually just see what's in my blogger dashboard and forget to check my reader. I lost a good follower by not paying attention to her because she had a wordpress account and I kept forgettin to check it...)

Anyways, I'm at a weird point right now. Some things are making me really excited, like the fact that March is here and that is bringing two concerts that I just found out I am going to this weekend (Envy on the Coast, Pendulum), Wrestlemania, Spring Break and of course Alice in Wonderland on Friday.

But I feel like that is all I'm looking forward to and when I'm not looking forward to these things, then other things just aren't that great right now. I'm sure a couple of readers can relate to this (in fact, I know some can) but school is starting to come down on me. And I am the kind of guy that waits till the last minute. And sometimes I just feel defeated. Like right now. I have two classes that I feel really good about and two that I am like "why the hell did I sign up for this?" I just want to graduate. But even that is bringing it's own problems. Sort of.

I have to decide where I want to intern. I've sent out applications and such, but right now it's looking like it's going to come down to three places: South Dakota, Montgomery or staying right here in Auburn. Now, those become "choices" only if I get accepted. But we will see...

I think what's been getting to me is that people have been bailing on me lately. Like, it's starting to become a pattern. To the point where my over-analyzing self is questioning if it's just a random set of coincidence or is there something about me that makes it easy for people to bail.

Sometimes I just feel that nice guy complex. Like that I am too nice. But truth be told, I don't really have an asshole bone in my body. By the way, if you guessed that I am not only talking about friendships but relationships as well, you would be right. I guess it's got to the point where I have been single for a good while now. And at the sake of getting "all emo up in here" I've honestly kind of gotten a little bit lonely. But again, I'm at that weird position where I am also not actively seeking anything because I don't know where I am going to be in a matter of months and don't want to end up in anything complicated.

Some days I am just thankful for my friends. And I'm talking about the real friends, the ones you can count on your hand. What I hate is that most of them are spread out and on days I break down and just send simple texts stating: "I wish we lived closer." But then I am thankful that Frisco has been right here by my side since day one of our freshman year. We talked today about how "the end" may come in May, may come in August. It's going to be a sad, sad day.

Really, I have no idea what this post is supposed to be about. I just started typing. I feel I have been slacking on commenting on blogs lately but as you can see I have a few things rolling around in my head and I'm just trying to make sense of it all.

What's crazy is that I will probably wake up tomorrow, stress about this test, take it and then come home and be in a great mood and think to myself "I shouldn't have posted this." But for now it seems like a good idea.

I made a commitment to myself that I am going to see Envy On The Coast on the 11th, even if I have to go alone (some friends can't make it, some said they will go but are kind of unreliable). And I really hope this time around they perform "Lapse," which is the RLOTD for this post, I guess making it not so random.

Random Lyric of the Day:

it's not as deep as it seems
and unfair as it may be
i'm just here to remind you
remind you not to forget to remember me

now i've died, you question so much
i don't possess the strength to answer straight
and no, i'm not afraid, at least not to die
i'm afraid to live and not remember why
sweet chemical indifference
i can't stop, can't change the evident

predisposed to perpetual sickness
i refuse to let you all be witness
make sure the needle is clean when you let me go back to sleep
and situate the piece of her picture underneath my fingers
it protects me in my dreams

it's not as deep as it seems
and unfair as it may be
i'm just here to remind you
remind you not to forget to remember me

So I Know It's Not Sunday, but Whatever...

STOP... Music time


1) Seems like bands are having the worst luck lately. Last month a bunch of bands (including Anberlin and Mae) had their vans broken into and now, within the past WEEK or so, Every Time I Die, Weezer and Underoath have all been in accidents. What the f is going on?

2) On a happier note, I saw that Muse has released US dates for next year with the supporting act being SILVERSUN PICKUPS! Where will they be on February 27th? If you guessed Atlanta, you would be correct :)

3) Lastly, this song is quickly becoming one of my favorites of all time. Take 7-8 minutes of your life and please check it out here

I'm caught
Somewhere in between
Alive
And living a dream.
No peace
Just clicking machines
In the quiet of compazine.
The walls caved in on me.

And she sings
My bird dressed in white.
And she stings
My arm in the night.
I lay still
Still I'm ready to fight.
Have my lungs
But you can't take my sight.
The walls caved in
Tonight.

And out here
I watch the sun circle the earth
The marrows collide in rebirth
In God's glory praise
The spirit calls out from the caves.
The walls fell and there I lay
Saved.

The walls are caving in
As far as I can see
The walls are caving in
The doors got locked for sure
There's no one here but me

Beat my body like a rag doll
you stuck the needles in my hip
Said 'we're not gonna lie
Son, you just might die
Get you on that morphine drip, drip'

The walls are caving in
As far as I can see
The walls are caving in
The doors got locked for sure
There's no one here but me

I fought a war to walk a gang plank
Into a life I left behind
Windows leading to the past
Think it's time I broke some glass
Get this history off my mind

And what if we were married forever?
Like the past never happened
And time did not exist for us at all
I still think we'd still be traveling together
Through all kinds of weather
Everything's a piece of everyone

As far as I can see
Walls are caving in
Doors got locked for sure
But I see these doors have keys

Walls are caving in
As far as I can see
The walls are caving in
Doors got locked for sure
There's no one here but me
There's no one here but me
No one here but me, yeah.
There's no one here but me
No one here but me.

I'm Caught Somewhere In Between Alive And living A Dream

So yesterday had some terrible/great weather. Terrible for the same reason it was great -- the rain was pouring down and it was the kind that when it hits your window, it just makes you want to stay asleep. Unfortunately, I did and missed the first class of the day, but it's the end of the year so oh well. But I made it to my second class only to be chewed out (not me specifically, but the entire class) by my teacher, and it felt awful. You know how when you are little, at times the guilt trip lectures from your parents sucked more than if they actually did something? That's what yesterday felt like. He was basically getting onto us for still making the same mistakes and not learning from them. This was a Reporting class, the major for 98% of us in there, and he flat out said that he has told people that have asked that he would not recommend some of the people in the class. That we would be a waste of time. Of course he makes you think to yourself "surely he isn't talking about me" and not to be big headed, but I don't think he was. However, I have some made some mistakes, so I still took the speech to heart. I really wish we had more time in there to turn the whole thing around...

Saw my sister and brother in law for the last time before they officially make the trip to South Dakota. If the situation was different, I would be a friggin mess right now, probably ballin my eyes out (don't judge me) at the thought of not seeing them again for a while. But the situation is different -- I will be flying out there in roughly two weeks. However, check in with me when I fly back. That's when you might see a (at that time) 23 year old male cry like a 14 year old girl if she ever found at that sparkling vampires don't exist.

We had dinner, just the three of us, and it was great. Everything we usually do: Gossip, crack jokes, eat, laugh, get serious if we need to. At one point I confessed to them that I would be joining Twitter soon and that made for great conversation (it was the three of us that had bashed the site calling it "stupid" among other things). It's always fun to eat your words. At the end of the meal, they took my bill and put it with thiers. Now, this may happen a lot, but not usually with us. It was just kind of a cool moment. I think we are all getting caught up in emotions and usually my pride would get in the way, but I just let it happen this time. She called me a few hours later and said she said goodbye to our neice and nephew and she broke down. So I guess I better watch out for her when I leave as well...

And how about a random story to end on? So we are getting specific shoes for jme's wedding and the site I ordered them from said (after I placed the order) that they didn't have any in the size I requested. I freaked out and googled some other sites and came across Zappos.com and snatched up some from them. I had tried to get expedited shipping, but went too fast. I noticed that they had a 24/7 helpline so at 8:30 at night I called them and asked to get the faster shipping. She said since I called, she put me as VIP and it automatically upgraded me to one day shipping, so I expected the shoes to get here on Friday (three days later). Imagine my surprise when I woke up the next morning to Frisco handing me a box that the mailman had just dropped off. It contained my shoes. Did I mention it was 8 in the morning, making it a 12 hour shipment?

Hope you guys have a good weekend. I will be watching the SEC championship, hopefully seeing Florida crush Bama for the second week in a row.

Random lyric of the day:

You gotta swim
For nights that wont end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers your friends

Recaps and What's to Come

Let's do this PPF style...

Past:

Last week was crazy. Monday before Thanksgiving I became pretty sick. Kinda sucked. I had a different symptom each day too haha. On Monday though it was a complete body ache. That sucked the worst. The next day or two I got the sniffles and sore throat, but at least the body ache went away. Through sickness and other people in the house at different places, Wednesday was a pretty chill day for me. Then, the next day was the chaos. I left for my hometown in the morning and made it to one of my family's house around noon. I was kinda curious as to how it would feel with this being the first time I was around all of them after the divorce, but it didn't feel different at all. Kinda cliche seeing as what day it was, but I am pretty thankful for that. A little bit of drama (wouldn't be complete without it) but its not worth the details. After family time, saw some friends including some I haven't seen in a while (Kelly, Ivan, the Baisas) and some I mention here quite a bit (jme) then got in the car and drove home and passed out knowing what was ahead of me the next day. From reading people's blogs, it seems that Black Friday is a pretty regular thing for you guys, and I got sucked in as well. My dad always sends me to find random stuff but this year I actually lucked out when they had some cheap prices on blu rays. After the shopping, I got in a little sleep and woke up just in time for the Iron Bowl. We lost. I sobbed. End of story. That night, Frisco went to a show in Atlanta so I was chillin by myself and watched the blu ray editions of Blades of Glory and The Patriot. The Patriot was an experience. I have seen it before, but it had been a while. I thought I would fall asleep fast, but I ended up watching all 2 hours and 47 minutes. Such a great movie, still gets me emotional at certain scenes and it looks GREAT in 1080p. The next day was sort of a recovery day, but Frisco was a dj at a party and that was so much fun. He had rappers that were freestyling over his stuff and it was just a really cool experience. Considering he didn't start until 1 in the morning, I pretty much slept all day Sunday.

Present:

My world is currently revolving around school, because it is coming to a close. But this has to be the greatest ending to a semester I have had the whole time I've been in a school. I'm done with my bowling class; after a quick paper, I will done with my visual communication class; i just did my final interview for my reporting class; which leaves me with only worrying about ONE final. That is such a stress relief (my apologies to those of you are stressing much more than this). That final is in psychology of addictive behaviors and could be pretty hard, but now that I only have to put all my time into one final, it should be good.

Future:

A lot of things are coming up. My birthday is in two weeks and I am such a media junkie I am getting excited because The Hangover, Inglorious Basterds and a re-release of Anberlin's cd all come out on my birthday. There are plenty of other birthdays in December, from cousins to best friends to grandmothers to fiances of best friends to sisters -- this month is stacked. But overshadowing birthdays is jme's wedding, which is getting here faster than what seems possible. After watching her say "I do" we will all hopefully hang out, then the very next weekend I will be traveling to South Dakota to spend Christmas/New Year's with my sister. We will be sending 2009 out with smiles on our faces.

Random thoughts:

*It is colder in my room that in the living room. Like, dramatically different temperatures.

*My mom is on facebook now. My aunts and stuff I am cool with. But for some reason, my mom being on there is kind of... annoying.

*Is anyone else interested in seeing Sherlock Holmes?

*I am thinking about crossing over to the dark side. Ya know, the one with the blue birds.

Random lyric of the day:

If we live our life in fear I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again
Quell your prayers for love and peace
You'll wake the thought police
We can hide the truth inside

Chaos and Giveaways

*I feel like I am getting sick. That's never good.

*In the span of two weeks, my car that I have been rockin for a month shy of 7 years finally died on me and I FINALLY got a new car. Expect a post dedicated to that soon.

*If you read my guest post I had, you can see Thanksgiving isn't a really great time for me. Too many memories. Amount of time I plan to spend at "home" this year? 4 hours max.

*One reason for the shortened time is the Iron Bowl coming up. Expect a post dedicated to that as well.

*And now the main reason for a post, if you haven't followed my friend's blog at this is me; consequently, head over there now. I mean, RIGHT NOW. She is doing a giveaway and the more that enter the merrier. I mean, it's free stuff. How awesome is that.

I will even make it easy for you, just click HERE

Random lyric of the day:

Symbolic gesture for a card in your hand
Shake it up with the cake in the sand
I want more money than a bank can hold
And all the things I've already sold
Need some time to wake up
Time to clear your mind
Time before you erupt
Need someone before you screw up

Bolt Speedman

Two quick names. That's how fast this blog is going to be...

WHOOSH: Guitar Hero 5 is pretty fun. Even though they are not guitar heavy, jammin to Coldplay and Brand New is pretty sweet. Most fun song so far? "You Give Love A Bad Name" by Bon Jovi.

WHAM: Saw a stand up show that the university put on tonight. Daniel Tosh from Tosh.O came and he was very entertaining. A little dark, but very entertaining.

KABLAM: Remember that show? Good times. But seriously, where have all my bloggers gone? Including myself. I need to stop putting lists and stuff. I actually do have some interesting stuff to talk about (roommate situation going to shit, my ex-girlfriend being back and how that is playing out, the fact that I might have feelings for one of my best friends) all would make for good blog posts, and I need to do it. Because in a weird way, it helps getting it off my chest to people I may not ever meet face to face. But I guess I can say that I've been busy. (Warning: I'm about to shout out my blogging circle) And that's what everyone else will say. I mean, don't get me wrong. Guys like the Tirader and Tennyson are holding it down. Faker just came back and Mr C is doing his thing like always. But I am missing the girl with the pink teacup (like everyone else), jeanette's constant posting, and I don't even remember the last time I read a post from Melissa. Add Natalie and MissH to this list, and it just seems like the world is one big stress ball recently. Here's hoping everyone is doing good. I just miss you guys.


Fin.

*Post title is in reference to a recent episode of Fantasy Factory

Random lyric of the day:

She's a pretty girl. She's always falling down.
And I think I just fell in love with her,
But she won't ever remember, remember.

And I can always find her at the bottom of a plastic cup.
Drowning in drunk sincerity.
A sad and lonely girl.

Quit crying your eyes out.
Quit crying your eyes out and, Baby come on.
Isn't there something familiar about me?
The past is only the future with the lights on.
Quit crying your eyes out, Baby.

David Letterman Post

Top Ten Things Going on Right Now:

(in no order)

1. Watched Adventureland last night. I expected to laugh a lot. It didn't happen. Major disappointment.

2. Remember Jet's song "Are You Gonna be My Girl?" Well, since then they have had a few songs hit the radio, but I feel their latest, "She's A Genius" is going to be their second biggest hit.

3. Why am I actually interested in seeing The Final Destination? Well, the 3D version...

4. I am now in a bowling league. Any suggestions for a team name?

5. Hitting up Crestview this weekend. Should be good times, like always.

6. Blogspot was kinda down the past day or two. Is it bad that I felt like something was missing from my life?

7. Speaking of missing from my life, The Daily Show and Colbert Report are on re-runs this week and I don't know what to do with myself. BUT Fantasy Factory and Nitro Circus have come back. And this makes me happy.

8. I ordered a wrestling pay per view on Sunday. For the first time in years, I felt like I got my money's worth. Pretty happy with the result.

9. September is coming soon. This means a couple things:

• Football season starts. Pro and college. So, get ready for some sports related posts.
• Ton of new music coming out: Muse, Saosin, The Used, Paramore, AFI. Expect reviews.

10. Lastly, my bfff is doing a giveaway on her blog. You are going to kick yourself if you miss out...

Random lyric of the day:


Because I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter
Since I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you

(ok, maybe it wasn't so random)

getting back into the habit

I did a bad, bad thing. I downloaded Taking Back Sunday's cd. I am only going it to listen to it a couple of times before it comes out, then I PROMISE I will pay for it. Maybe even twice if I can find the vinyl. So far I am very happy. They sound very grown up. But I am sure I will give a detailed review later.

Speaking of music, i have officially begun learning the piano. I have messed with learning the C, D, E, F, G, A, & B keys. It's a start.

I need a new car. My current trial and tribulation includes my back lights staying on even when the car (and the light switch) is turned off. So I bought a new part and finally got it replaced after a while of messing with it (a mechanic, I am not). Guess what? It still doesn't work. Sigh.

Bad news? I was very close to being mean to "this girl" today. She was making me feel bad about not hanging out with her and I really wanted to say something along the lines of "why don't you hang out with your boyfriend?" But I don't know, guess I just don't have it in me...

Good news? The No Doubt/Paramore concert is next weekend. Along with that comes Jme's visit. Hopefully the weather won't be crappy like last time. And since her boyfriend isn't here for his friend to steal she might be in a better mood. Did I mention a massive water balloon fight?

Random lyric of the day:

Well I'd like to see all roles reveresed
to watch you hang on every word,
I'd like to see you have your way

I keep my grammer well rehearsed
correct each studder every slur
Come on have your way with me

off the top of my head

*mini semesters suck -- but this one isn't too bad

*i've spent a lot of time lately with a girl who I feel is almost becoming my younger sister. I get this weird protective feeling over her. If she were any cooler, my current best friend who lives away may need to get worried (but she shouldn't)

*my dad might come visit me -- and stay the night. What?

*so i'm stuck in a situation where i'm pretty sure I like this girl and she uh, has a boyfriend. More on that later.

*it's hard to hold a grudge. I've broken down and tried calling my ex-girlfriend the other day. Her phone went straight to voice mail. I haven't tried again. Maybe in another month or two.

*i need to get back into this blogging thing. Get myself out there more.

*more details later... for now is bedtime

Random lyric of the day:
I've been roaming around
i was looking down at all i see
painting faces, building places i can't reach

you know that i could use somebody
you know that i could use somebody
someone like you