So a major change is taking place in my life right now. A third roommate is moving in. For the past two years, it has been my best friend of nearly 12 years, myself, and his sister. However, his sister moved home around December of 2008. But even before that, she was barely here. So basically, for the last two years, it has been him and I. And we held it down. Never any drama. In fact, he helped me through a lot. The break up between myself and my girlfriend of just over three years, the divorce of my dad and stepmom, his first ever real relationship, it kind of goes on and on. We got into new shows together like The Office and Scrubs. However, this is starting to sound like we are splitting up, but we're not. The point I think i'm trying to make is it is easier to have that connection when it is just two people. I just don't know how a third roommate is going to work out. I mean, I have been friends with him for a few years, he isn't a stranger, but still. I just worry. It's what I do. Like we joked around the other day when we split a six dollar pizza together. They slice it up into ten pieces. We were like "what are we going to do with three people?" Haha
I had a text conversation the other day that went something like this:
Her: "Hey, I know you probably have plans, but we are having a 4th of July BBQ at my dad's if you want to come."
Me: "On the actual day, cuz I will probably be in Crestview"
Her: "Yea... I figured you would be..."
Those lil dot dot dots, it made me sit there and think. My greatest fault is that I over analyze way too much. And she got to me. Do I visit Crestview way too much? (For those new to the game, Crestview is where my sister and brother in law live). I asked a friend of mine today and he was like "who cares?" I guess that is the approach I take, but it just bothers me a little bit. I don't know why...
So some new things I am going to try out with this blog: Wordless Wednesdays and Flashback Friday. I have seen WW before, so I am pretty sure I get the concept. I only saw something about a FF on lovelila's word press account. Now, I don't know if this is an actual thing, or it's just something she does, but either way, I'm taking it, haha. I just found my old livejournal, so it should be fun.
And finally... I saw Transformers. I have to say, I was dissapointed. (now the blog title should make sense). If you haven't seen the movie, stop reading now as I will probably go into detail. I have only walked out of one movie in my entire life -- The Spirit -- but when Sam got up in the classroom and was making those weird noises and stuff, I swear I was ready to get up. The story was kind of all over the place, I had no idea who the characters were at times, and the cheesiness that worked in the first movie, in my humble opinion, was overplayed in this one. Maybe i am getting old (at 22, I sure hope not), but when a robot called a dude a pussy and the 5 and 6 year olds next to me were cracking up, I just felt slightly uncomfortable. I read a lot of stuff where Micheal Bay just blows stuff up, like that is what his whole movie is about. And they are right, there was stuff exploding in this movie for no reason. We were laughing, cuz at one point it looked like he had recycled footage from Pearl Harbor, another movie of his. And don't get me started on Megan Fox. As hot as she is, she was lame in this movie. And this is going to sound really weird coming from a guy, but when she smiled, she looked ugly haha. I don't know, maybe I just liked the bad ass chick from the first one, and not the "say you love me" from the second one. My last gripes are this: during the last battle scene, I was honestly confused -- I didn't know who were good guys and who were bad guys. And if Optimus Prime would have stayed dead, that would have been awesome. But as my friend pointed out, they took the "cookie cutter" route. Now, reading all that, you would think I hated that movie, but not really. I was just dissapointed after watching the first one. That's all
Edit: Actually that's not all, haha. I am a HUGE fan of The Office, and it sucked to me that Rainn Wilson was only in that movie for two minutes. And I am also a huge fan of the music and movie connection and I have to say it irritated me to hear "21 Guns" by Green Day played THREE TIMES! I like the song, but they could have played something different. Teasing the Linkin Park song was cool, but they killed Green Day by playing it a FOURTH time during the credits. Just my two cents.
I saw a trailer before the movie that I had seen before, but I find it funnier now. I realize it sounds weird to say you "know" somebody through blogging, but what the hell, I feel like I sorta "know" someone from Australia. It intrigues to learn about the music (shoutouts to Wolfmother) and the different langauge. Anyways, I feel little chuckles now when I see the trailer for Funny People and Seth Rogen "He is going to kill us, they are from Australia, that's what they do, they kill things there!" So I ask you, girl, is that what they do there? Haha, see for yourself:
Random lyric of the day:
Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place, wont you come with me
We could start again
Showing posts with label ranting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ranting. Show all posts
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
The Up Side of Down
Drama. You want it? I got it. But that's not what the point of this is. No, it's about dealing with it. I feel I am becoming better at it. Read on...
So the last time we checked in, it had seemed like I had a good time with this girl. Apparently, she didn't have as great as a time. Or maybe she did, but she was "helped" by the margarita she had earlier. I digress, let me start from the beginning.
So I have been kind of feeling her for a while, but also for a while she has had a boyfriend. Although it wasn't a monumental moment in my life because of the (lack of) seriousness, I have been cheated on. A makeout session. And she knew she was going to break up with me, she just hadn't found the opportunity. So it's hard to get upset at that. But still, I never met the guy (still haven't, have no desire to) but I know how it feels. So in the situation with this girl, I wasn't going to be the other guy and make a move. However, we made plans to hang out on a Wednesday. What happened on Tuesday? She became single.
So Wednesday rolls around and she had a horrible day at work and wanted to take me up on the offer to go out and get some mexican food and a margarita. When we came back we watched Revolutionary Road (don't do this) and were getting very cuddly on the couch. It felt nice. Considering my last relationship lasted 3 years and this is the first girl that has even shown an interest since that time. Well, I thought she did. Went over the next night, and nothing. The touchy feely stuff was gone. Only a mere "you should rub my back" (which I did) occured. Left her house, had an awesome Friday that included my best friend visiting and us going to see No Doubt and Paramore, a lazy Saturday followed by a similar Sunday. However, that day was when I got the information that when I left, she called one of my good friends (the dude that actually got us talking in the first place) and he came over and they made out. Good times...
This actually came after I mustered up the courage to ask her what she felt about me and she replied that we could be more than friends "in the future." Then some other bs about her not being ready to go anywhere or what not. So pretty much, I felt like an idiot. A girl that I liked, that I thought liked me, invited a good friend of mine over, who I thought had my back, and they made out.
If you are still reading, then you might be wondering to yourself, "where does the title of this blog come from?" Well, it's my ability to deal with these situations. With my ex-girlfriend, it's hard for me to even drive in the town that she lives in. But I do feel I am getting better with that. But it took me a while. However, it only took me a day to get over this. I called my friend and talked with him. (I had actually gotten the story from a different friend, and when she told it, it genuinely seemed like he didn't know I had some kind of feelings for her). In a move I really wasn't expecting, he apologized for the misunderstanding, saying he wouldn't have done it had he have known. I actually believed him, but told him in hindsight it wasn't a big deal because there was nothing happening. So me and him are cool. As for this girl? Well, let's just say i'm not going to hold a grudge, and I like having new friends, but as far as her showing up in this blog, this may be the last time you hear of her.
So, the up side of down? It speaks to my optimism. I've been criticized for it before, but it helps me. So much so, that I am thinking of taking a huge step. I am thinking of reaching out to my ex. Not in a "get back together way," but try to get on talking terms again. I am tired of avoiding situations and am ready to face them. Let's see how this works out.
If this was too long and bored you, expect a random update soon.
(Not so) Random lyric of the day:
It's not that I don't trust you
well I just know what you've been up too
and well this dial tone is agreeing with everything I've had in mind.
and you've got your high as a kite tricks in the bag.
you're down for sellin' me out
while I play dumb,
it's cool cause I let you, thought I'd never catch you,
you'd say "we're only friends." yeah, real good friends, I bet. I bet.
forget your legs around my hips.
forget your hands pressed on my back.
forget the letters that I kept.
this is another I won't send
So the last time we checked in, it had seemed like I had a good time with this girl. Apparently, she didn't have as great as a time. Or maybe she did, but she was "helped" by the margarita she had earlier. I digress, let me start from the beginning.
So I have been kind of feeling her for a while, but also for a while she has had a boyfriend. Although it wasn't a monumental moment in my life because of the (lack of) seriousness, I have been cheated on. A makeout session. And she knew she was going to break up with me, she just hadn't found the opportunity. So it's hard to get upset at that. But still, I never met the guy (still haven't, have no desire to) but I know how it feels. So in the situation with this girl, I wasn't going to be the other guy and make a move. However, we made plans to hang out on a Wednesday. What happened on Tuesday? She became single.
So Wednesday rolls around and she had a horrible day at work and wanted to take me up on the offer to go out and get some mexican food and a margarita. When we came back we watched Revolutionary Road (don't do this) and were getting very cuddly on the couch. It felt nice. Considering my last relationship lasted 3 years and this is the first girl that has even shown an interest since that time. Well, I thought she did. Went over the next night, and nothing. The touchy feely stuff was gone. Only a mere "you should rub my back" (which I did) occured. Left her house, had an awesome Friday that included my best friend visiting and us going to see No Doubt and Paramore, a lazy Saturday followed by a similar Sunday. However, that day was when I got the information that when I left, she called one of my good friends (the dude that actually got us talking in the first place) and he came over and they made out. Good times...
This actually came after I mustered up the courage to ask her what she felt about me and she replied that we could be more than friends "in the future." Then some other bs about her not being ready to go anywhere or what not. So pretty much, I felt like an idiot. A girl that I liked, that I thought liked me, invited a good friend of mine over, who I thought had my back, and they made out.
If you are still reading, then you might be wondering to yourself, "where does the title of this blog come from?" Well, it's my ability to deal with these situations. With my ex-girlfriend, it's hard for me to even drive in the town that she lives in. But I do feel I am getting better with that. But it took me a while. However, it only took me a day to get over this. I called my friend and talked with him. (I had actually gotten the story from a different friend, and when she told it, it genuinely seemed like he didn't know I had some kind of feelings for her). In a move I really wasn't expecting, he apologized for the misunderstanding, saying he wouldn't have done it had he have known. I actually believed him, but told him in hindsight it wasn't a big deal because there was nothing happening. So me and him are cool. As for this girl? Well, let's just say i'm not going to hold a grudge, and I like having new friends, but as far as her showing up in this blog, this may be the last time you hear of her.
So, the up side of down? It speaks to my optimism. I've been criticized for it before, but it helps me. So much so, that I am thinking of taking a huge step. I am thinking of reaching out to my ex. Not in a "get back together way," but try to get on talking terms again. I am tired of avoiding situations and am ready to face them. Let's see how this works out.
If this was too long and bored you, expect a random update soon.
(Not so) Random lyric of the day:
It's not that I don't trust you
well I just know what you've been up too
and well this dial tone is agreeing with everything I've had in mind.
and you've got your high as a kite tricks in the bag.
you're down for sellin' me out
while I play dumb,
it's cool cause I let you, thought I'd never catch you,
you'd say "we're only friends." yeah, real good friends, I bet. I bet.
forget your legs around my hips.
forget your hands pressed on my back.
forget the letters that I kept.
this is another I won't send
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Girls are Complicated
So the saga continue on two fronts:
1) "this girl" was sick, so I decided to try and pull the sweet card and bring her soup and crackers along with some gummy worms because of a status she had put up. She wasn't there so I left it. When she called me HOURS later I went over there and watched the duel. While watching she does the cute legs on me thing. I would be into this whole scenario, but the fact that she has a boyfriend is making it weird. It's like I feel I am getting the signals, and I want to act, but the boyfriend thing is throwing me off. I'm not the kind of the guy that messes around like that. Sigh.
2) my ex-girlfriend and I talked today. For the first time in months. And on the phone. And it was a long conversation. It was a good one though. No yelling or guilt trips. She is doing a lot better in life and from talking to her I realize I am doing a lot better also. I'm still not ready to be friends though. I wanna be able to communicate if needed, but friends is out for right now. She just mentioned her boyfriend's name and I clammed up. But i do feel a friendship coming for us soon. She is coming back up here to go to school. Can you saw awkward? Sigh.
In other news:
*I'm catching up on the duel, but apparently i'm pretty behind. Just saw Easy get eliminated. Pretty sad about that.
*Started my "assistant music director" job at WEGL today. Basically, I listen to music and say whether it is good or not. Pretty sweet. And we signed up for our shows this summer. Wednesdays it is going to go like this: 5-6 is Frisco, 6-8 is Me and 8-9:30 is Matt Walker. Should be some good Wednesdays.
*Bought some records today: Band of Horses, Kings of Leon and Minus the Bear. This vinyl business is not good for my wallet.
*Also bought some books today. Got one I have been wanting for a long time, "Scar Tissue" by Anthony Keidis. Hopefully I can get into it.
Random lyric of the day:
Do you never wonder?
No, no no no
You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
1) "this girl" was sick, so I decided to try and pull the sweet card and bring her soup and crackers along with some gummy worms because of a status she had put up. She wasn't there so I left it. When she called me HOURS later I went over there and watched the duel. While watching she does the cute legs on me thing. I would be into this whole scenario, but the fact that she has a boyfriend is making it weird. It's like I feel I am getting the signals, and I want to act, but the boyfriend thing is throwing me off. I'm not the kind of the guy that messes around like that. Sigh.
2) my ex-girlfriend and I talked today. For the first time in months. And on the phone. And it was a long conversation. It was a good one though. No yelling or guilt trips. She is doing a lot better in life and from talking to her I realize I am doing a lot better also. I'm still not ready to be friends though. I wanna be able to communicate if needed, but friends is out for right now. She just mentioned her boyfriend's name and I clammed up. But i do feel a friendship coming for us soon. She is coming back up here to go to school. Can you saw awkward? Sigh.
In other news:
*I'm catching up on the duel, but apparently i'm pretty behind. Just saw Easy get eliminated. Pretty sad about that.
*Started my "assistant music director" job at WEGL today. Basically, I listen to music and say whether it is good or not. Pretty sweet. And we signed up for our shows this summer. Wednesdays it is going to go like this: 5-6 is Frisco, 6-8 is Me and 8-9:30 is Matt Walker. Should be some good Wednesdays.
*Bought some records today: Band of Horses, Kings of Leon and Minus the Bear. This vinyl business is not good for my wallet.
*Also bought some books today. Got one I have been wanting for a long time, "Scar Tissue" by Anthony Keidis. Hopefully I can get into it.
Random lyric of the day:
Do you never wonder?
No, no no no
You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly
Well it's been a while. Let's start with the weekend.
Jme got here on Friday. Apparently she brought a monsoon with her. I actually saw hail for the first time in my life. Then, had one of the most scary drives besides driving in the snow in Kentucky. Frisco showed up though and drove us through it. What a guy. But then the ultimate nightmare began. We watched Twilight. I'm just kidding, it wasn't that bad. But it was pretty bad. All those people that are excited for the next one? I'm not one of them.
Saturday got here and not much happened. Went shopping and it was fun pulling the whole "I'm bored, get me out of here" routine. Then had some pretty delicious taco salad. Saw Aaron and tried to give him some kind words before he left for a good number of weeks.
Sunday I thought was going to be an average day. Jme left and it felt like she had just gotten here. We did watch our senior video the night before. Made me miss some people. Those that I have lost, and those that I have lost touch with. It was cool though to be sitting in the same room watching it with the person I considered my best friend at the time and for her to be there almost 4 years later. Wish we could have done more while she was here, but ya know, economics. So she left and I tried to start studying. I actually got some in and finished what I had to present for press, law, and ethics. Then I got the text. My best friend had gotten engaged. I mean, we were all expecting it at some point, but it happened out of nowhere. I'm really happy for her though. I always liked Aaron, always rooted for him even in the "down" times. And I really gained a lot of respect for him because I feel like he is making these decisions, such as the military, for them, not just for him. Stand up guy. However, after all that I went to the library to finish my report for another class and the fire alarm got pulled. Figures.
Monday was... interesting. I presented my case briefing for press, law, and ethics. Went better than I thought it would. Just another thing, among a lot of things lately, that I stressed about till it got here and then it was over. Then, I got home and things took a turn into crazy town. First stop: "the friend and future roommate". He had come over to ask us a bunch of random questions that he wanted our opinion on. So we gave it to him. Then, he just got up and walked out. To make a long story short, we got a little worried, decided to check on him, got a little more worried, then had to make a decision. Let it go and just assume everything is ok or involve the police. Well, after a couple of times of thinking everything was ok in the past, and it turning out to be the complete opposite, we made a decision and called the police. Turns out everything was ok, we looked like idiots, and now he is pissed at us for checking on him. Asked for his "space". So he has it. And i have no idea what the future holds. Then, the final destination in crazy town: "the ex-girlfriend." Got on myspace and saw that I had a message. What it contained I really wasn't ready for. She was dating somebody else. After an official month of not having any communication whatsoever, I get informed that after being told that "she just couldn't do it right now" that she was giving someone else a shot. The only way I could describe it would be to say I am just numb about the whole thing. I am writing this down to see where I stand a week or month from now. On both subjects. I honestly wish the best for both of them, my friend and my ex. Let's just see what happens.
And then today. A little brighter. Took care of my presentation in psych after being chosen, not being able to volunteer later. But now it's over. Then, with a special thanks to Frisco for providing the ultimate background, finished my paper for feature writing. Then had a really cool dj session with him, fine tuned my playlist for tomorrow, and here we are. Still to come: Test on Thursday and if I can get it straight with work, a visit to Florida this weekend. Let's hope that works out.
Random lyric of the day:
Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you
Jme got here on Friday. Apparently she brought a monsoon with her. I actually saw hail for the first time in my life. Then, had one of the most scary drives besides driving in the snow in Kentucky. Frisco showed up though and drove us through it. What a guy. But then the ultimate nightmare began. We watched Twilight. I'm just kidding, it wasn't that bad. But it was pretty bad. All those people that are excited for the next one? I'm not one of them.
Saturday got here and not much happened. Went shopping and it was fun pulling the whole "I'm bored, get me out of here" routine. Then had some pretty delicious taco salad. Saw Aaron and tried to give him some kind words before he left for a good number of weeks.
Sunday I thought was going to be an average day. Jme left and it felt like she had just gotten here. We did watch our senior video the night before. Made me miss some people. Those that I have lost, and those that I have lost touch with. It was cool though to be sitting in the same room watching it with the person I considered my best friend at the time and for her to be there almost 4 years later. Wish we could have done more while she was here, but ya know, economics. So she left and I tried to start studying. I actually got some in and finished what I had to present for press, law, and ethics. Then I got the text. My best friend had gotten engaged. I mean, we were all expecting it at some point, but it happened out of nowhere. I'm really happy for her though. I always liked Aaron, always rooted for him even in the "down" times. And I really gained a lot of respect for him because I feel like he is making these decisions, such as the military, for them, not just for him. Stand up guy. However, after all that I went to the library to finish my report for another class and the fire alarm got pulled. Figures.
Monday was... interesting. I presented my case briefing for press, law, and ethics. Went better than I thought it would. Just another thing, among a lot of things lately, that I stressed about till it got here and then it was over. Then, I got home and things took a turn into crazy town. First stop: "the friend and future roommate". He had come over to ask us a bunch of random questions that he wanted our opinion on. So we gave it to him. Then, he just got up and walked out. To make a long story short, we got a little worried, decided to check on him, got a little more worried, then had to make a decision. Let it go and just assume everything is ok or involve the police. Well, after a couple of times of thinking everything was ok in the past, and it turning out to be the complete opposite, we made a decision and called the police. Turns out everything was ok, we looked like idiots, and now he is pissed at us for checking on him. Asked for his "space". So he has it. And i have no idea what the future holds. Then, the final destination in crazy town: "the ex-girlfriend." Got on myspace and saw that I had a message. What it contained I really wasn't ready for. She was dating somebody else. After an official month of not having any communication whatsoever, I get informed that after being told that "she just couldn't do it right now" that she was giving someone else a shot. The only way I could describe it would be to say I am just numb about the whole thing. I am writing this down to see where I stand a week or month from now. On both subjects. I honestly wish the best for both of them, my friend and my ex. Let's just see what happens.
And then today. A little brighter. Took care of my presentation in psych after being chosen, not being able to volunteer later. But now it's over. Then, with a special thanks to Frisco for providing the ultimate background, finished my paper for feature writing. Then had a really cool dj session with him, fine tuned my playlist for tomorrow, and here we are. Still to come: Test on Thursday and if I can get it straight with work, a visit to Florida this weekend. Let's hope that works out.
Random lyric of the day:
Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you
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