Decisions

I'm struggling with how personal, or "deep," I want to get on this blog. I mean, it's for me. And it's a journal-type entry as the description says, but still I have friends that follow and one that may join soon, and if I talked about what I really wanted to, it would be about him. For the sake of manning up, I will wait till I talk to him in person before going off on here, even though it's basically venting to myself.

Also on the subject of deepness, I really want to pour my heart out on here. But I don't know if I'm ready to do that yet. And do I name names? Or refer to persons simply as "her." As in, "it's been two weeks since i've talked to her. I wonder if that even matters to her..."

These are the decisions I have to make regarding this blog. How light-hearted will it stay or will I allow myself to get personal. I think I will because that is the point of not advertising on myspace of facebook, like I am very willing to do.

Also, I am trying to stay current so that when Jme visits in two weeks she will be able to show about this 20something blogger site. I really want to join and get a community and all that. But i'm still in the rookie stages I guess.

One last thing. The title of this post says it all. Sometimes, you have to make certain decisions. Some come with age. I am learning that and I hope the people around me start to learn that as well.

On to the randomness:

Worked out this morning before going to work. It was pretty awesome. It gave me a good feeling the rest of the day. A feeling I am going to try my hardest to duplicate in the days to come.

Made decisions within myself to apply for a position on the plainsman and wegl staff next year. I've only been on the plainsman on a volunteer basis before and only been a dj at wegl, so it will be cool to have some positions there. Maybe.

Played some more Resident Evil 5 today. I really like this game. A lot more than I thought I would. Sad we have to take it back Wednesday...

I think i've done good studying wise this weekend. Could have studied better, I mean you could always study better, but I think a lil kick in the morning and I should be good for the test tomorrow. Then it's time to get in one last adventure with RE5.

I think I have a project I want Jme to work on. She is pretty creative, I hope she can, or wants, to help me out. We shall see.

Time for me to go find those wings of luck to carry me through this test tomorrow.

Random lyric of the day:

Somebody's gonna die
I'm gonna get in trouble
My ex will start a fight
He's gonna start a fight
WE'RE ALL GONNA GET IN A FIGHT!

I've got to start going to bed earlier

Today was one of those "where did the time go?" days. Didn't wake up until noon, probably due to the RE5 marathon the night before. Didn't play at all today, so that was good. Also didn't clean. Not good. Study? A little. So what did I do with all my time today? If you guessed that I messed with my myspace, you would be right.

Added new pics to the page and to the group for my radio show on facebook. This week's show will be random, but still should be fun. Already got a message from somebody saying they liked Vampire Weekend, who I will be doing an "Album Showcase" on, so that's good.

Heard some depressing news today. The magazine "Blender" is shutting down. I think they might still be online, but that is really depressing for someone who wants to write for magazines, not newspapers, when he graduates. Call it setting high goals, but I wanted to work there. Or AP Magazine. Something like that at least. I don't feel I am conceited, but why have low goals? I really feel I am going to go somewhere one day. Whether it's doing feature stories for WWE Magazine or doing online reports for yahoo music, I promise you will see my name somewhere.

I'm going to try and wake up early this week. Good luck to that.

Random lyrics of the day:

In the air I flew
Through the clouds I fall
And all the things I've tried to say
Were never easy to explain
They were always meant for you

Is it really 3:30 in the morning?

Frisco and I joined Matt Walker in the studio tonight. We usually do, well, I usually do, but Frisco made an appearance tonight and it was really cool, the three of us just vibin in there. We played random songs from 10-11, as is the usual format, then Matt played some chill music at 11. I am currently writing this blog right now because I am waiting for the Album Leaf to finish downloading so I can listen to it as I'm falling asleep.

I am also writing because we decided to stop playing Resident Evil 5 for the night. We are about halfway through and it's pretty much a given that we are not going to finish it before I have to take it back on Wednesday. Definite second rental though cuz I am really enjoying this game. Not "scary" like the old ones, but still tense and the teamwork aspect is cool.

That's about it for my day. Work was good, except for the thunder that woke me up this morning, then the wetness that I was surrounded in. Changed the title of my blog already. I think you see more music related posts anyways, so why not go with a Coldplay reference? Relived my favorite match of all time today -- The Rock vs. Hulk Hogan. Getting ready for Wrestlemania next weekend. I really wish I was more excited about it...

Speaking of wrestling, sort of, I recorded the Nick Teen Choice Awards because I wanted to see The Rock, excuse me -- Dwayne Johnson, and he was really good. I have to say, I think the kids route is where he is at now.

Taking Back Sunday announced the name of their first single off their new cd. "Sink Into Me".
I can't wait...

Took pictures in the studio tonight. Sounds innocent right? Well what if I said I only wanted to take pictures so I could post them on myspace? What if I told you it wasn't even my camera? Should have them uploaded soon

And as far as my plans... I studied a little bit and cleaned a little bit. NEED to finish tomorrow. Mabye admitting that we won't finish RE5 will not distract me so much.

My download is done. Goodnight.

Random lyric of the day:

As you stand...
under the barlights
and the band plays some song
about forgetting yourself for a while
and the piano's this melancholy soundcheck
to her smile

Day 1

So I think I am going to try and keep a format with this. I listen to music everyday and I love little random lyrics that pop into my head so probably at least one of those. I would like this to be a daily thing and it would be cool if people started reading this, but honestly I want it to be daily for me. My handwriting is too bad for a physical journal and my life has had so many ups and downs that it would be good to keep track. See how much I change in a day to day, week to week, and month to month basis (to early to tell about year to year). So with that said, here goes...

Short term goals:
*Figure out this blogspot thing and master it
*Change up my myspace with a new layout for a while (is that bad that I actually plan for that?)
*CLEAN (specific areas - bathroom and living room)
*Get in some studying this weekend so I can raise my test scores up in Psychology of Aging
*Try to get back on a schedule next week -- attempt to start waking up early so I can work out in the mornings

Long term goals:
*Get grades to help my GPA
*Save up money for various events
*Lose some pounds
*Learn the piano

Today was pretty much a usual day. Being a delivery driver at a flower shop, you either have work or you don't and today I had a little bit of work. But it allowed me to come home and mess with this, so that's good :) (side note -- thanks jme for introducing me to all this).

Rented Resident Evil 5. Pretty awesome that it has co-op so that my roommate and I can play it. Speaking of my roommate, I feel sometimes our arrangement is like a marriage. When I get off work before he does, I wait till he gets home and try to plan stuff for us to do together. Man, I need to meet some girls...

No matter what else, I NEED to study this weekend. So let me get to sleep so I can get on it.

Random lyric of the day:

The water is warm,
but its sending me shivers.
A baby is born,
crying out for attention.
Memories fade,
like looking through a fogged mirror
Decisions to decisions are made and not fought
But I thought,
this wouldn't hurt a lot.
I guess not.